Today, was a great day for me! I had mommy time, (never thought I would say that...feels kinda weird) and wonderful conversations with some dear friends. It was surreal to find it all wrapped up in a blog i read at the end of the day from a friend of mine. Good job Lori! You totally nailed it on your "speaking of addictions" and "choices". Thanks for sharing. If you want to check it out go to
www.herroyalexcitedness. on my blog list.
So, i am constantly trying to figure out how i want to use this blog spot. Is it for snow or for me or for the three of us? Seeing as how snow can't write yet, and Jon David hardly has the time and never looks at it until i put it in his face...I guess it is already mostly meeting my needs and i should use it to share and journal. the only problem is that by the time i get to it i have nothing to say because the day is just a replay of the day before and all my mind is mush. I never seem to have any deep thoughts anymore, and isn't a journal for deep thoughts. It always has been, anyways.
All i think about and all i see is little Ethan. (Some of you are asking me if we are calling him Ethan or snow. Well, as you can see it is both. He is such an Ethan to me and he is my little snow bug! ) I watched most of my friends get lost in motherhood and all there was in life was their baby or child. Their smile, cute sayings, funny things they did, bad habits or behaviors, how to redirect them or not get into a bad habit as a parent, co-sleeping, not co-sleeping, etc. "Surely, they realize there is more to life than their little bundle of joy", I would think. Well, here i am, and NO!!!!!!! Here is nothing more. Well, there is, but yeah all i see is the end of my nose and it is pushed up (or smashed up) so far in my face by my babies needs that i have simply lost my panoramic view. And honestly, it is a relief at times. I am no longer responsible for anyone else but this baby. At least for a while. Not that i am not responsible to recycle or love my husband or think of others, but you know what i mean. Anyways, i realized this and it bothered me to now be that girl, as much as it is making me feel like the saying, " you don't know till you get there" is laughing in my face and teasing me.
So, i did something about it and i got out and saw the world again with out the baby. On Saturday night i went out dancing with my husband and we tried to swing dance after like a years break. It just made me crazy inside. I missed it so much and didn't even have the ability to notice and i am burning to take classes again so we can be as good if not better than before. so, that is exciting to look forward to! Wednesday, i got to have some girl time at my house with take out and wine...woo hoo! Then on Thursday morning i got to go to my yoga class...EXCELLENT! Today, I met friends for coffee (that was with snow, and it wasn't as hard as i thought is would be) and I had lunch with a different friend. All thanks, to my wonderful husband and Snows loving grandparents! And to end the day i get to go to a friends house for dinner. All in a days work! Girls, Girls, Girls ROCK! And i am loving their company.
Thank heaven for Girls!